2/17/09 What do you want to be when you grow up?
I am just now at nearly 40 years of age and still I don't know what I want to do. I know a lot of things that I don't want to do and it is difficult to find your "place" in life that way. What am I good at? What would suit me?
I am exploring the avenue of a Master's Degree, or at least what it takes to get one. There is this big monster test that one takes called the GRE, Graduate Readiness Exam. The prep book is really large, about 2 inches thick and sort of intimidating. The test itself also costs money....$140!!!! The good thing is that it is a computerized test. The bad thing is fear of failure of course. So, stay tuned to see how this turns out.
The subject of Child and Educational Psychology sort of jumps out at me. It seems to be one that I have educational experience in (all those Psych courses). Exploration is definitely necessary though and I am sure to get a blog or two out of it. Children need help. I know I did at a young age. If I had one person who I felt could help me with depression, goals, and a little bit of reality, things would definitely be different now. Think about how it would feel though to be that one person to a child/teen. That would be a powerful feeling! Like that commercial for Make a Wish when the principal plays a villain, tights and cape and all, for the little boy who has a wish to be a super hero. I tear up just thinking about it. (of course for me, the tearing up is not a difficult task as those who have read here before know).
Wouldn't it be cool too, to write a column like Carrie Bradshaw on Sex in the City. How does she come up with the topics? I know, I know, it is only a movie. But still, my philosophy is that someone had to have some type of relevant experience in order to make up stories or movies or the like. Do I have anything interesting to say that people would really look forward to hearing about on a regular basis...I do seem to have an opinion about everything anymore....or is that just part of getting older?
So much to think about all the time. No wonder B gets mad when I ask her if she has homework for the 5th or 6th time. I honestly can't remember everything anymore! There is so much going on now but not necessarily things that I "want" to do but "have" to do. I get extremely resentful of the things that I have to do ie. job, cleaning dishes, okay, really just the job. And that isn't a feeling that I want to have anymore. Thus the quest for what I want to be when I grow up....
I like to go to school.
I like to be creative.
I like to make things with my hands.
I like to help people who want my help.
I like when people need my knowledge.
I like to work nights.
I like to see the sun too.
I love school supplies!!!
I love the library.
I like to feel needed.
I like autonomy.
I love to learn new things!
I love my kids (Brianna and Cats!)
These are not necessarily in order, just how they popped into my head. Sometimes I have to write them and read them to realize the good things and refocus on them instead of the bad, monotonous, and mundane that sometimes bogs me down.
Is everything a jumping off point???
I am exploring the avenue of a Master's Degree, or at least what it takes to get one. There is this big monster test that one takes called the GRE, Graduate Readiness Exam. The prep book is really large, about 2 inches thick and sort of intimidating. The test itself also costs money....$140!!!! The good thing is that it is a computerized test. The bad thing is fear of failure of course. So, stay tuned to see how this turns out.
The subject of Child and Educational Psychology sort of jumps out at me. It seems to be one that I have educational experience in (all those Psych courses). Exploration is definitely necessary though and I am sure to get a blog or two out of it. Children need help. I know I did at a young age. If I had one person who I felt could help me with depression, goals, and a little bit of reality, things would definitely be different now. Think about how it would feel though to be that one person to a child/teen. That would be a powerful feeling! Like that commercial for Make a Wish when the principal plays a villain, tights and cape and all, for the little boy who has a wish to be a super hero. I tear up just thinking about it. (of course for me, the tearing up is not a difficult task as those who have read here before know).
Wouldn't it be cool too, to write a column like Carrie Bradshaw on Sex in the City. How does she come up with the topics? I know, I know, it is only a movie. But still, my philosophy is that someone had to have some type of relevant experience in order to make up stories or movies or the like. Do I have anything interesting to say that people would really look forward to hearing about on a regular basis...I do seem to have an opinion about everything anymore....or is that just part of getting older?
So much to think about all the time. No wonder B gets mad when I ask her if she has homework for the 5th or 6th time. I honestly can't remember everything anymore! There is so much going on now but not necessarily things that I "want" to do but "have" to do. I get extremely resentful of the things that I have to do ie. job, cleaning dishes, okay, really just the job. And that isn't a feeling that I want to have anymore. Thus the quest for what I want to be when I grow up....
I like to go to school.
I like to be creative.
I like to make things with my hands.
I like to help people who want my help.
I like when people need my knowledge.
I like to work nights.
I like to see the sun too.
I love school supplies!!!
I love the library.
I like to feel needed.
I like autonomy.
I love to learn new things!
I love my kids (Brianna and Cats!)
These are not necessarily in order, just how they popped into my head. Sometimes I have to write them and read them to realize the good things and refocus on them instead of the bad, monotonous, and mundane that sometimes bogs me down.
Is everything a jumping off point???
posted by Jennifer at 9:29 PM
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