8-20-07 Feeling better

I feel better today than I have any other day so far. It is really unexplainable I guess. Having nothing really to occupy my mind and time for the past two weeks didn't make it any easier but makes sense that it played out as it did.

Ten reasons why it is great to be Jennifer today:

1. I made a family

2. I am courageous in asking for help when I need it

3. I don't give up easily

4. I have a great kid

5. I am smart

6. I am a good friend

7. I have people who care about me

8. I am resilient

9. I am thoughtful

10. I carried a healthy baby boy for a wonderful family

Usually the first 3 or 4 reasons go up quickly but then I find myself trying to dig for more. Maybe one day, they will just flow out and I won't have to think about them. It will be second nature.

So, I am going to visit my friend Shannon who had a baby this morning. Hopefully I won't cry too much. I also need to get my blood drawn and make an appt with my family practice doctor. Off to shower and find something that might fit my transitioning body...