3-25-05 Always looking for my happy ending Ü

Being happy is hard work. I nearly had to have sutures the first 2 days that I did "rubberband therapy". Since then it is a smidge easier to "be nice". It is easier to not take inventory of other peoples opinions. Anger feels bad and happy feels good. I think that you know which one I will choose. Ü
I am always looking for my happy ending. Now I am also working on it. Why wait when you can make it happen? I will not be an overnight success. But I have a plan and a few alternate plans just in case and it may take a while but I will make my happy ending. I have options now that I refused to see before. I chose to only see the negative. If you remind yourself always of the positive, even if it is the exact same thought every day, then you start to believe it and that is a great step. I will remind myself that I am worthy of all the good things in the world until I truly believe in my potential. I will not give people who hurt me "space in my head", they are not privileged in that way anymore. My priority is me: now, first, and foremost. That is how it should have always been. I took a detour and am back on the right path now. Every once in a while you should take "the long way" just to see what else is out there.