3-14-05 Do I hafta?

I am really dreading going back to work. But what else would I do? Sleep all day, stamp or knit all night? Though it does appeal, it is not feasible.
So, inpatient therapy is coming to an end. I have 2 more half day sessions and then will go to outpatient. Hopefully it is somewhere safe. I am deathly afraid of the mental hospital and the detox hospital. I just have depression! I don't want to be put in with the alcoholics and drug addicted or worse, the really, really mentally ill.
The weather is getting beautiful again. A bit chilly still but clear and sunny is a definite start. I walked this weekend. Probably would have done another lap if I wasn't alone...maybe next time. I would love to walk every day but working 12 hour shifts, I really have no energy for before or after work. I may try the park at lunch. That may be just what I need. I will have to take the pedometer to find out how far around it is. I am possessed with knowing exactly how far I am going or have gone. A little fear of the unknown perhaps? Ü
Well, here is a photo to think about. Monterey, CA February 2004.......