3-11-05 "Just Do It!"

My tip for beating procrastination in group was this... Do one thing a day that you don't want to do. Do it first. Or even just take a "little bite", then the rest is dessert! One of the other patients heard this advice on Wednesday and used it. She said that she liked how I compared it to getting kids to eat veggies, you tell them to take at least one bite, they don't have to finish it, just take one bite. Once that is done, it's over. Then you still get dessert afterwards.
I can't believe that I have been away from work for a month! It feels great. I just fear that my fragile psyche isn't strong enough to go back next friday. I will be attending therapy next week for 3 partial days. I am glad because Dr. Tom is fabulous! He does group therapy on Monday and Thursday. 2 more cry days! WooHoo! His methods seem to work, for me anyway. I am trying to keep the "ducks in a row" but not too confident that they won't stray. I fear failure most of all. I also fear not holding up my boundaries. I fear my need for male attention. A simple hug would do it! On a regular basis would be even better. I have all of this passion inside me and no one to express it to. Wierd? I am sure it is and I am okay with that as long as I don't explode holding more feelings inside! That would be a site huh? Ü