2-13-05

So, all is well on the western front. Finally figured out how come I couldn't type anything to post new info. Smart Blondes always figure something out. Running with scissors in spice girl shoes helps too. Ü

Except this:
I used to think that I was a "nice" person. Evidently this is not the case anymore. Not sure exactly when I became so incredibly angry and hateful towards the world at large, but I am. Bad habit to be negative and even worse to criticize others even if it does make one feel ever so slightly more adequate. This blonde is far from perfect or natural! Ü And yet over and over again, the mean one comes out and it is at a point in my life that I may lose my job because of it.
A wise friend brought up the art of being patronizing (or was it empathy?). How do I learn how to do that fast???? I have basically 4 days off to get this down before I am back at work. Then another 4 off to further practice this art that sounds so much better than being bitter. Or is it greed and not the bitter? HELP!!!! Anyone????

What kind of therapy is it that I need (shock, acupuncture, anger management, aversion, hypnosis)? Asking is the first step right? I am not opposed to any sort of help, as long as it is the quick acting kind. And not another medication! Pills really aren't helping. Maybe I need a sedative?