Who the Fuck are you!?!...

to tell me what to do. I have worked my whole life and received nothing for "free". And you come in to my job and tell me that I talk down to people. Really! Here is some talking down then....

I am sick and tired of the free-loaders. It makes me ill to have to help someone who has had 5 kids (none of whom live with her) and treat them like everyone else. Who the fuck are you to tell me anything? New rules for those of you who work for a living and reap no benefits....you can't pay, you don't play. Why should we who work carry those who don't? You can't pay your hospital bill, you don't get to take the baby home and you get a complimentary hysterectomy (that is something I will have my tax dollars go towards!) so that you can't drain the system anymore. You or your baby tests positive for drugs, you forfeit the baby and get the above mentioned hysterectomy. You can't pay, or are on state funded insurance ie. Medicaid, then you DO NOT get a private room, you can stay in the unrenovated section of the hospital where you will get your own juice, and change your own pads, and not get any free help for breastfeeding or cramps or whatever. You can't wash your hands for the 2 minutes that is posted on a sign above your fucking head before you come into my unit, you can leave and not see your relative's baby until it is discharged.
When do I get to be "right"? When do I get to start taking some of these benefits back since I have worked for them for over 24 years! I have served my country! What the hell have you done?

Twice in two weeks I have had a vision of my car rolling over and my first concern was not if I was okay, it was "how will they know it is me?". If I died would anyone miss me? Not really, life would go on and I would only be hurting myself. If I call in sick to work will they suffer? Not really, you are only hurting yourself because then you won't get the shift differential of almost $2 an hour. So, really I don't matter. And when I think of who to call at 0130 in the morning , no names come to mind who would "pick me up". NICE!

6-5-09 What do June Showers bring?

If April showers bring May flowers then what will become of July? It looks and feels like Seattle. I have the windows open but am too lazy to go get a blanket. Maybe a hot breakfast will do....my electric bill is certainly grateful but come on...

Brianna got 2 D's and an F in core classes. How did I raise such a lazy kid? She doesn't care about her grades since she is not going to "College". Paul Mitchell Beauty Academy costs $13,000! I only made $34,000 last year with a ton of overtime! This year with the economy in the state that it is, there is no overtime so how will the tuition come out of $24,000? And I have to go to school too! In addition to all of the regular household bills and things. She is so picky too about where she will apply to work. The girl has no real experience so she can't afford to be choosy. We told her that if she got A's and B's that we would get her a car and pay the insurance. Wow I would have been valedictorian if I had that offer back then. Guess it wasn't incentive enough for B though. The bank of mom is now closed for the summer so I wonder what will happen next? Stay tuned, I am sure to blog about it!

Summer is upon us and I need to get to UNR to find out what is out there and where I am needed. I am ready to go to school during the week and work the weekends. Social life, what is that? I can knit anywhere and anytime. The cats are just glad to have me home. I will find some social life after I have achieved my super higher education! Grad school here I come!

I have been a maniac knitter lately. I finished my Geisha socks which weren't all that tricky at the toe division once I made up my mind to "just do it". Also I finished a kitty for a baby named Jayden in the NICU. I bonded to him somehow. All I can think of for a reason is that his uniquity touched my heart. I am sure that he will touch other hearts in his lifetime!

Well, the first draft of this blog took an internet crap. I still have dial up and have tried X 2 to get the damn ATT people out to set up the high speed (yet another bill!) but they can't seem to show up on time or at all and I don't have many days off to be dicking around and twiddling my thumbs! Maybe this one will actually show up on the blog page?!?!?!?!
Off to sleep, Harry Potter movie and knitting will usually induce some sort of nap and another baby in the NICU needs leg warmers so.....if anyone knows a real life HP in my age group, I will consider giving up being single. I so love Harry Potter! Hint hint hint....