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Found: one old friend. Well they found me really. It is nice to have found one. The lead that I thought I had on Brent Sheets was a nice one but a dead end one. I still would like to find him. I am sure that he lives in or around Texas. Hell, maybe he is still in the Marines and stationed somewhere else. I can't describe the need that I have to find him and catch up on what has been going on in his life.

I need to learn to be nicer to myself. I need to learn that I deserve love no matter what I look like or feel like. I need to embrace the fear and challenge myself to new things. I need to get new Nike's and "Just Do It". I know why I am alone...it is safer. I know why I am fat...it is safer and I can hide behind it, use it as an excuse, and I am emotionally starved for attention!



I finished these socks for my mom for mother's day. I did one sock in less than 24 hours! I am in project finishing mode I guess. It is great that I have finished 3 things in a week.