12/11/05 Revelations

They just keep coming! If my heart breaks, it is my own fault for only I can control my feelings and emotions. It is my job to limit my involvement and reactions to situations. Right? Well this is my blog so it is right. "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent", well put by Eleanor Roosevelt. Nobody can make you feel anything except maybe physical pain. The mind is a wonderful thing. Especially for those who can will themselves not to feel. Not on a permanent basis mind you, but on a come as you go basis, PRN, as needed.
So, my heart gets fractured because I let it. I get attached emotionally because I let myself. I allow me to go overboard into the Dramatic zone. How can I get restraint back? How can I learn to live in the moment and take things for what they are and not what I think I want them to be? Hmmmmm. Pretty strong feeling for Barbie. What is, is.
So, the hip joints have ached for a few days as result of the overzealous Barbie training session on the treadmill. Have been paying for it with pain. That too will pass. If I let it get to me and bring me down, then it will, my fault if it does. Will try to begin habit of 0430 treadmill tomorrow. I know I know y'all are tired of hearing it...."show me the killer quads and skinny ass!". Still working on those. Mind over matter. So if I can get to bed now, I will not have to fight myself to get up at 0430 and hit the 'mill. "Just Do It". I think that I need that in tatoo form or painted on my walls or I could endorse Nike with my car! I love their shoes anyway.
I have shared enough wisdom today. I have to catch the sandman and prepare for 3 days of 12's.
Over and out!