04-25-05 Not all men are dogs? (I hope)

Why do I want what I shouldn't? Why do I try so hard to get what I think that I want knowing that it always turns out the same? Case in point (real names are used.....)
There is a cutie-pie EMT named Travis. We talk at work and I think that we are going somewhere. Not so. He's just a tease who has a bad relationship, who makes comments that he can't back up, and can't handle when I come back with one of my own. As my friend Rich said, I am often brutally honest. That tends to scare them off real quick. Friends with benefits, don't even go there. I want more! I want it all!!! or nothing. Maybe that is mean of me and I should be "just friends"? Don't know don't care. It is obvious that the fault is with me and not him. I could have said nothing to promote him talking to me again, I could (in a ultimate great world) have been a stronger person and not let myself get caught up. The whole thing obviously turns out to be onesided and I am not saying that just to be hard on myself!
So, back to lonliness. Not that I had a whole lot of prospect there though.
10 great things about me right now:
1. I am beautiful
2. I am smart
3. I am resilient
4. I am capable of change
5. I am independent
6. I am strong-willed
7. I am loyal
8. I am honest
9. I am responsible
10. I am passionate

Can you add more? I expect you to! Ü