8-28-06 Lots of thought and little time
and space to put it all to paper.
Last Sunday a very dear man died. The how and where is not relevant. What is relevant is that he was such a wonderful person and was so fabulous as a nurse! He has been gone for over a week and it really hasn't sunk in yet. It may never make sense or have any rationale. It shook the foundation of the entire hospital and most of the community. Many of us still feel his presence at work. A nurse told me the day of his funeral that she didn't think that he had "crossed over" yet. I don't think so either. I see his red plaid shirt out of the corner of my eye and then the rest of the picture revives itself in my mind and I see the khakis and the light brown leather briefcase and I can hear his voice at Lifeskills. He helped me more than anyone will know and was a genuinely kind and patient person. I don't think that there is a negative word that you could use to describe him. HE was well loved and respected.
Lots to talk about in therapy....
Working on changing my thinking and view of the world. I can't stay shut in anymore. I used to be social and can be again. I miss that. Maybe I need to volunteer somewhere. I have thought about a storytime at Starbucks or even Barnes and Noble. I really like to read so it makes sense.
I also like to knit. So it is fun that I am making doggie legwarmers for Buddy the big gay Great Dane. His mom calls him that and he is secure in his wearing of pink so....I am making legwarmers since he will be in the snow country for this winter. They will be multi pink and red and magenta. Will have to post a photo of the ensemble when complete. I am also thinking that a Flashdance inspired sweatshirt would be the icing on the cake.
The new gestational carrier contract is in place and the parents are so nice! I started my meds today. Shots in the belly really aren't that bad! The icky antibiotics that make me nauseous are the bad part. I can't wait to be pregnant. Embryo transfer is tentatively set for Sept 30 or Oct 1. I know that two will be implanted for sure. I will have such fun shopping for prego clothes! And messing with people's minds about who the parents are. Tee Hee Hee.
Oh, and we have a new orange baby kitty named Joey which is short for Josephine. She is so funny with her kitten antics all over the house. We really enjoy her even when she leaps onto our legs and holds on with the claws (whether we are wearing long pants or not). Phoebe is even getting used to her a little bit. Joey tries really hard to get Phoebe (20 lbs) to chase her. There is less hissing everyday.
Well, I had better get going. Another dose of antibiotic to take along with the regular meds. I still have a few rows on the leg warmers that could be done and some baby blanket finishing that really can't wait.
Until l8r.
Last Sunday a very dear man died. The how and where is not relevant. What is relevant is that he was such a wonderful person and was so fabulous as a nurse! He has been gone for over a week and it really hasn't sunk in yet. It may never make sense or have any rationale. It shook the foundation of the entire hospital and most of the community. Many of us still feel his presence at work. A nurse told me the day of his funeral that she didn't think that he had "crossed over" yet. I don't think so either. I see his red plaid shirt out of the corner of my eye and then the rest of the picture revives itself in my mind and I see the khakis and the light brown leather briefcase and I can hear his voice at Lifeskills. He helped me more than anyone will know and was a genuinely kind and patient person. I don't think that there is a negative word that you could use to describe him. HE was well loved and respected.
Lots to talk about in therapy....
Working on changing my thinking and view of the world. I can't stay shut in anymore. I used to be social and can be again. I miss that. Maybe I need to volunteer somewhere. I have thought about a storytime at Starbucks or even Barnes and Noble. I really like to read so it makes sense.
I also like to knit. So it is fun that I am making doggie legwarmers for Buddy the big gay Great Dane. His mom calls him that and he is secure in his wearing of pink so....I am making legwarmers since he will be in the snow country for this winter. They will be multi pink and red and magenta. Will have to post a photo of the ensemble when complete. I am also thinking that a Flashdance inspired sweatshirt would be the icing on the cake.
The new gestational carrier contract is in place and the parents are so nice! I started my meds today. Shots in the belly really aren't that bad! The icky antibiotics that make me nauseous are the bad part. I can't wait to be pregnant. Embryo transfer is tentatively set for Sept 30 or Oct 1. I know that two will be implanted for sure. I will have such fun shopping for prego clothes! And messing with people's minds about who the parents are. Tee Hee Hee.
Oh, and we have a new orange baby kitty named Joey which is short for Josephine. She is so funny with her kitten antics all over the house. We really enjoy her even when she leaps onto our legs and holds on with the claws (whether we are wearing long pants or not). Phoebe is even getting used to her a little bit. Joey tries really hard to get Phoebe (20 lbs) to chase her. There is less hissing everyday.
Well, I had better get going. Another dose of antibiotic to take along with the regular meds. I still have a few rows on the leg warmers that could be done and some baby blanket finishing that really can't wait.
Until l8r.
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