7/5/06 Who am I?

A question often pondered. How is it that just when I am about to find out at least part of the answer, I abandon the task and find something else to work on. How is it that I crave so much attention.
Our new Director brought to my attention that as single mom's, we don't get that feedback that we need. Just hearing that we did/do a good job. In our world it is all about everyone but us it seems. I am so focused on paying the bills and trying to get some extra money that I become the job. That the job starts to take up too much of my attention and time and becomes primary. I forget everything else or simply set it aside like a project that I will finish "someday". When will I get time to work on me? When will it end, this madness that is making ends meet? Why is it so difficult to "change" whether it be jobs, way of thinking, habits, whatever? When do I totally get to do what Jennifer wants and not what I think that I have to do or what is expected of me?
It is a long road that is not marked on any atlas. I always seem to choose the one "less travelled" but will it really make "all the difference"?